What have I done to my son’s head?

In the heat of this weekend, I was sure that I was ready to give my 2 year-old son Aidan his first buzz cut. His hair has been looking a bit too Little Dutch Boy/Bad Bowl Cut and I frankly was tired of people telling me how cute my twin girls were. I didn’t notice when my brother in law put on the number 1 attachment to the clipper (honestly, I had no idea what number 1 meant anyway) and after he took the first swipe, I nearly fainted. The number one clipper attachment is basically the closest length to bald that you can get!

So, after my husband splashed cold water on my face and I got my head straight I sat nervously as he continued to finish the cut and started thinking about seconding guessing and parenthood. It seems like everyday my brain goes through the ping pong match of trying to figure out how best to deal with things like how to get a kids to eat something healthy, how to deal with homework, how to deal with my daughter’s need to tattle tale on everyone and how to get my kids to sleep in their own gosh damn beds!

There are moments when I feel like a complete rookie in every way. Did I give my son the constructive criticism he needs without completely making him hate doing homework? Did I make too big of a deal about eating fruit and will it turn my kids into Twinkie eating fiends when they leave for college? Do I really need to deal with the tattle telling thing when she’s a good spy for future misbehavior?

I was staring down at Aidan last night as he slept and for a moment I felt like I was looking at a completely different kid. Change is good and in my day to day life of having to make decisions for a family of 6, second guessing isn’t so bad when at the end of the day you have a cute kid to look at before you go to sleep.